“Accept the children the way we accept trees—with gratitude, because they are a blessing—but do not have expectations or desires. You don’t expect trees to change, you love them as they are.”
― Isabel Allende
― Isabel Allende
Yesterday Finn was officially diagnosed with autism spectrum disorder. Today I'm feeling rather overwhelmed knowing that Zac and I are the parents of three boys with autism. Three amazing boys , one equally as amazing daughter. When I say I'm "okay" what I mean is "I don't feel like running my car into a wall, I'm not crying for 3 hours a day, I don't stare blankly out my window." When I say "I'm okay" what I mean is "I can see light, I can see value, I can see hope." I feel creative, I look forward to summer - I have joy. But, if you want to know... I am sad.
We are completely committed to our Finnian Arrow. He has been such a light to our family and will continue to be - he has so many strengths and I thank God that my spectrum baby can speak, can run, does not have any really horrible allergies that I feel are uncontrollable. I have a lot to be thankful for. I'm thankful for his animated personality, I'm thankful that he is smart and that he knows what he likes and dislikes. I'm thankful that his laugh is infectious. I'm glad that he interacts with others (as best as he can.) He is one special boy and a huge asset to our family. He fits in here - and I will do everything that I can do to help him succeed in life. My prayer for him is that he can live independently (as much as possible) when he is an adult, that he would know God as a friend and Savior, and that he would be a servant to others. That's it. Those are my wishes. Where he is on the spectrum, these things should be possible. Thank you for wondering and for being dear friends.
~ Alyssa Spring